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my updated brooklynn hc ref!! got her out of the ugly green from her previous one.... also transgendered her. felt like it. might redo the others too!!
#brooklynn jwcc#headcanon design#hcs#jurassic world camp cretaceous#jurassic world chaos theory#jwcc#jwct#her shirt pattern and color gave me the biggest problem#i can never decide bro#so just take this ig#im so over it#live laugh love brooklynn#i dont even actually like her that much shes just fun to draw#redesign
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mourning black and the death of ideals
#i haven't moved on from this yet. btw. i'm still here#finally decided to draw the thought i've been ruminating over for days on end bc it's like a parasite eating away my brain#stated this on the initial post i made days ago but there's just smt so gut wrenching and sickening#about how dazai will have worn black exactly twice in his life: once as a member of the mafia and now at kunikida's funeral#a color that initially signified devotion to the mafia and his demon prodigy alias now signifies his grief#him having to wear black again at the funeral of another doomed fatalist who chose his heart over his survival. his own partner.#kunikida's death being so reminiscent of the tragedy that initially caused him to defect and flee#and everything tying together full circle and effectively breaking him#asagiri rly said fuck knkdz it's doppover we lost gang 😭😭😭#why did bro leave that fucking notebook behind#fool. do you know that angst potential you have left me to work with?#love never won in bsd. it lay dead and festering#i don't know how much longer i can keep saying i miss them. i'm going to kill myself if he doesn't come back#i've never wanted something to be death bait so desperately#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#bsd#dazai osamu#osamu dazai#kunikidazai#knkdz#kunizai#(??? technically. its implied anyway)#lotus draws
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herbology class 🌹🌿 (from chap 2 of my fic!)
#his alliteration/pun combo is even more lame in the actual chap bc seb holds up a dittany seed as he says this#bro had the dad jokes before he even became a dad😔👌#alliterations are just how they flirt.....losers...and i notice them EVERYWHERE now too. ive cursed myself#also MY ONESHOT IS LIKE 70-80% DONE I THINK?? im 30k words in but i might end up making it 2 chaps instead#idk im still deciding..itll depend on if i find a cutoff point that im happy with. cuz right now i dont like splitting it anywhere LOL#but maybe ill do it and release the first part just so that i can get it out and then finish the latter half later...decisions decisions#also now that im done my fic i also wanna draw a bunch of the earlier scenes i never did like this one#so weird drawing seb and clora not together yet tho LOL esp for seb. like damn there was a time u COULDNT just smooch clora?? nightmare....#i also almost drew clora wearing her hairclip SO many times by mistake LOL. thats the plus side of pre-seblora tho. dont gotta draw it🤪#hogwarts legacy#hphl#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x oc#sebastian sallow x mc#clora clemons#sebastian x mc#choccyart#mirabel garlick#hogwarts legacy fanfiction
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Isn’t Vortex a fucking torture freak tho? 👀👀👀
Yep. He is. He is a lot of things actually. The more you learn about him the more fucked up it gets
#at first I was like#ah yes another crazy helicopter#but then I learned the lore haha#hoo boy#the guy was a criminal and was so good at it#the government had to take his spark out of his body and put it in a freezer so he won't break the law anymore#then Starscream took him out and was like#you and your bros are my minions now#btw I made you unable to recharge on your own so uou are basically my hostages#work for me or starve to death losers#and then also Megatron with his Javascript exercises#Seriously. Megs looked at those criminals who were crazy strong and also crazy smart and decided that enslaving them would be a great idea#He basically reprogrammed Vortex and others. He made him literally unable to disobey his orders#what kind of fucked up thing to do Megsy???#G1 was great ahahahah#silly kids show about war and crimes and slavery#also#I might be wrong here because I haven't watch G1 entirely....but I'm pretty sure Combaticons just fuckin. stay Megatron slaves forever??#Like. The code that Megs put in their heads is never mentioned again? And for the rest of the show they forced to serve the Decepticons???#and everyone just?? Forget about them? I repeat I might be wrong here. It would be great if I'm wrong#also yeah Vortex is a torture freak and totally crazy#I saw a note somewhere that mentioned he likes to transform around other bots and then fly as high as he can and drop them#fucker lol
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Pokemon trainer AU, Reborn is the champion meanwhile Tsuna is his apprentice. Tsuna’s design belongs to my friend @Cloud_Knee (Twt or X)
#katekyo hitman reborn#r27#sawada tsunayoshi#reborn#my friend and i discussed about which pokemon would be in their team. eevee and umbreon was ther for their similar looks to r27 lol#flygon is a good candidate bc yk. leon. and for tsuna suprisingly we liked the idea of meloetta (bc meloetta has two forms like how tsuna-#-has his normal vibe and his dying will mode)#for reborn we thought of him having a liking for bug types bc of his bug communication skills. like his seasonal bug thing#we also thought of lore for a whole game which was heavily based on pokemon mystery dungeon bc we wanted death (future arc spoilers oof)#but general beginning plot is: tsuna dislikes having pokemon battles so all his pokemons are non-combat#- somehow he meets reborn (? idk maybe bro trips and got silly and he now owes reborn something). and reborn then seeing how close-minded-#tsuna is he decided to accept tsuna as his apprentice so he finally gets it#we discussed about tsuna also seeing reborn often at a lot of places but never got in contact (bc we thought of him living on a mountain idk#like how everyone cant see through reborn’s disguises but he can. so he’ll just see him around (bc reborn is hiding himself from the public)#as a champion. yeah#yeah thats about it i think. ive forgotten most of our ideas dkdgkgfhfhfj maybe another time
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was watching apocalypse with my brother and once the cerebro scene popped up he was like 'charles has a helmet like erik, only instead of keeping people out, he tries to reach out and connect with others' like guys i need to bash him with a rock
#xmen#xmen apocalypse#xmen movies#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#is this cherik. probably#snap chats#GENUINELY what is his deal#'snap i thought you were watching x2' and i finished it and then my bro came up so i decided to rewatch apocalypse while he was here#hello chat. im aware the people enjoy my brother's quotes so here i am sharing another as it has damaged my brain#GUYS I HATE MY BROTHER WHY DOES HE KEEP SAYING THIS SHIT BEFORE I CAN THINK IT#so real tho ..... also i may be drunk so maybe im more emotional about this revelation than i should be but still#basic observation im aware but still ... doesnt become less wack when you say it out loud ....#thats so fucked ... i mean 'people' being charles but still ... why would you say that#i still have some of my whiskey left so im gonna pound it and then drink some water and probably cry myself to sleep#or ill doodle a sketch idk. im inspired.#for now good night !!!!!!!!!!!!! all my brother does is accidentally inflict psychic damage upon me#AGAIN you never expect it from your brother but thats what makes it esp whiplash inducing .......
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"He's spent the entire time being picked upon and bullied by the family. I think personally from where Juan stands he sees the hypocrisy in the family, how they can do one thing and say another. As far as Juan is concerned he's always had the best interests of the family at heart, however misguided that might be and doesn't quite comprehend why nobody understands that. Nobody seems to understand that what he does, he does for the betterment of the Borgia clan and never waivers from that. He does that in ways that perhaps aren't sanctioned by the church or sanctioned by family law."
#oh spill the tea!! he truly believed he was doing something right. an impulsive sad lonely dude who doesn't think through#he was bestowed a position he never gave a fuck about in the first place because being a soldier is NOT what he wanted#he just wanted his family's love and affection. a simple i love you would've gone a long way#the way he teases cesare about being a cardinal because that's the only way to get his attention it's just a little brother thingie#and yet cesare took it way too personal lol crazy to me how cesare was the one who slowly destroyed juan before killing him#like how he forced his hand to murder djem and then slowly sabotaging him by mocking him constantly then setting him up to die at forli#by not informing him that ludovico's army was coming for his neck like even from a military stand point cesare ruined the forli mission fr#because he decided to prioritize his own jealousy of juan; humiliating him and hoping him to die so he can take his position as a soldier#the hypocrisy part is sooo tea because cesare killed juan in cold blood telling him that they're borgias and they never forgive#5 mins later he's begging rodrigo to forgive him for killing juan like bro was just saying that to dying juan to destroy him mentally first#i'm screaming he singlehandedly caused juan's spiraling into darkness. how are you gonna fuck up your brother that hard helpppp ?!!?!?!#fucked up dysfunctional family that i love#david oakes#juan borgia#the borgias#theborgiasedit#perioddramaedit#televisiongifs#tvedit#by jen
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worst trope is found family separating as soon as the antagonist is dealt with.
#yes this is about voltron and it's also about guardians of the galaxy#what james gunn did to gamora in GOTG3 is criminal#i understand why they did it but to end with her GOING BACK TO THE RAVAGERS?#fail end.#seriously#and it doesnt even make sense bc ofc the high evolutionary isnt going to be the last problem they would deal with#in just a few years they encountered 5 people trying to destroy the universe and who were incredibly difficult foes#youre finna tell me there will never be a situation like that for the rest of their lives?#gtfo#and mantis' end was dumb too not even sorry#i can tolerate drax and nebula's ends.#but everyone else?#stupid#even peter's ending was fucking moronic. bro can pop in on the weekends he doesnt need to be a live in nurse for his grandpa#it's just such a major letdown and sucks everytime a director/author decides to split up the found family permanently#at least with voltron you can rationalize it by saying 'oh they never really wouldve hung out with eachother if they werent forced to for#voltron and werent forced to fight a war together.' and i can see it bc none of them DO hang out together before voltron#they barely even hang out AFTER they become voltron#keith and shiro hang out bc of the adoption/fostering/mentoring thing. lance and hunk MIGHT hang out bc they were already teammates#it's important to note that we never really see hunk and lance being bffs. theyre just friendly to eachother.#this becomes even more apparent once hunk and pidge actually become friends. it's very obvious hunk was just being friendly to lance.#just friendly.#(take this with a grain of salt bc ive only watched the whole series one time. i refuse to acknowledge anything after se 2.)#so yeah it does make more sense theyd all go their own ways but not even the small friend groups stay together at the end!#pidge and hunk are in completely different galaxies from eachother. same with keith and shiro#lance is isolated from all of them bc post se 3 writing team genuinely hated him and failed him as a character.#but GOTG3? they CHOSE to band together time and time again. they CHOSE to be a team. they CHOSE to be family#for every single one of them to say 'nah fuck that i want to be on my own bc uhhh reasons!' is a lame ending.#period.#gotg3
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To the Gummy GOMZ, clearly you're important enough my phone auto caps you, how would you go about first introducing an oc to the possible friends/fandom. Cause I've been on the fence of introducing my boy but it's also 👀 would people be interested to hear about him, y'know?
Hello!! Uhhhhhhhhhhh well the way I did it was literally just showed my friend a doodle of my bbg Raven and said "so she's my precious and she's with Price" XD I think if your friends are genuinely interested, they'll hype you up to matter what :] if they don't wellllll maybe look for someone else who might be interested
It depends on how you want to present your oc, and everything Im going to say under read more are entirely my own opinions sooo see what works for you mate!
(Lemme preface this by saying the more you stress about what others are thinking, the less motivated to do anything oc related, so try not to overthink too much on it xD) It's easier said than done but once you get over the nervous period, everything else can run smoother than usual, anyway!
The simplest way to do it, is literally like what I did, show a picture/a meme/picrew/art/mood board, anything that represents your oc, and say "hey! this guy's been in my head for a while now and I thought yall might wanna see em :3"
The least awkward ways are through memes and Im not even kidding, you could show your clip of someone doing something dumb or your oc core and just go "dude this reminds me of my oc" and go from there
^ those, are specifically for if you want to introduce your oc to your friends
v these, are more like if you want to make a public post generally, a lot of these are more like how do you want people to be interested/how to hook people in, basically they're my opinion from a creator perspective, learned from seeing other people's posts and from my own experiences!
What is the main focus of your OC? are they a character paired with a canon character? are they their own character in their own universe and such?
(Assuming your boy is from COD or specific fandom) Use canon characters to your advantage
If the OC is someone who is paired with a canon character, you can introduce them by putting the attention on said canon character first, then introduce your OC through canon character's pov or something like that
People are more often used to seeing something they already know first hand before they focus on the new things, what I'm trying to say is people are more likely to stop scrolling if they see "Nikolai" first in a post rather than "[name that no one knows]"
For example, if you're doing an incorrect cod quote style of post, start with Soap/Ghost (or like any cod character really) saying something then add your OC into the mix, then the people who are reading the post would go "huh? who's the new guy?" Yk? hook your audience in when they least expect it
Soap: why the hell are you in the kitchen, baking...cookies?
Ghost: I got bored
OC: I lost controlled of my life
Ghost: also OC chugged like the entire milk carton so we need to buy more tomorrow
Soap: ????
The funnies, memes or like...something hot are more likely to grab attention, you could go gungho and explain that your OC is a super cool medic or sniper and all that but it's not that interesting if you consider half if not 80% of cod fandom OCs are bound to be similar bcuz it's a military game (I'm not saying no one here has unique OC btw, I am being general here)
Imo, I feel like a full post introducing the character from their name to divisions to legions to family name to dog 1 2 3 names are less interesting. Yes, these kinds of posts are important if someone wants to know more about them, but using that as the first post is a bit draggy and can make people lose interest easily! Think about it, using COD guys for example, when we played the game or watched any playthrough, if you saw Ghost you're immediately interested because the way he was presented - some big guy with a skull face, not because of a full line text in your face xD
You don't need a whole backstory, just a name, a callsign or what they do is enough for an introduction
Visuals are the way to go! If you have a photo of your oc, doesn't matter a faceclaim, picrew, art or even a whole mood board, posting those are more likely to gain interests
Some examples of OC posts to share, maybe you can get inspo from em too :3 (also it's my chance to geek out some other and my friend's OCs HAHA)
milkywayhou and their oc snow - this was one of the first few post I founf from their page, literally knew nothing about em but the angst left a strong impression
corporalellie and their shadow company OCs (they also have some spicy stuff involving their ocs) - shocking coming from someone who doesn't care about Graves but hey, if the oc stuff are cool then we're cool LMAO and also half my ig moots all have their oc in Shadow Company so it was inevitable to avoid xD
Vos Videmus and their oc Jax (blood warning) - I knew their OC since they commissioned me before, but the renders and the vibes they have are >>>
munyon and their oc Phantom - another shadow OC, again, 1 visual + a few simple line for introduction :]
thybreadmolds and their oc Vulture - this comic is just >>> we're greeted by the canon characters first (ghost and soap) and then he OC in a different color entirely (grabs the focus), very cool way to introduce their oc imo!
(so far I've only ever rambled about art based examples, so have some text base) can't forget Father's OCs Carol and Kimmy, altho the focus of the post wasn't on OC, it's still a nice way to introduce new characters smoothly into established relationships
sleepyhead 1o1 and their oc Juliette - they were excited to show me their oc and I like their lil intro :3
tim and their oc Chariot - beautiful parallel
Im biased since bressy is genuinely the person who made me want to have a cod oc in the first place, they're my biggest motivator and have been supporting me since day 1 :3 so have their oc Ava (this one and this one)
bunnysnared and their oc Fledge - a cute and fun way to introduce your oc using character meme template
when it comes to cod OCs I cannot leave sleepyconfusedpotato and their oc Jade out -w- (I think this was the first post I saw from em and loved it)
alypink and their oc Aleks - <333333333 I love their AdlerAleks arts :) they do a lot of oc stuff with others too!\
_ohholy on twitter about their OC Rachel Saunders - Part 1, Part 2 (they have so many good arts....I love them)
#my advice is always just do it - you'll never know until you try it#esp if you already have friends who are interested they'll help a lot with hype and motivation#that was me with Raven#for the longest time it was me and bressy in our own lil discord group#and then I decided to cast my bbg into the void#until eventually someone notice em :)#also i didnt know i rambled this much until i linked aly's oc stuff and realize#am i yapping too much#am i even answering your question#KASJDHKASJDH#IF IM NOT I APOLOGIZE AKSKJDSA#my brain's not in the best condition rn it's filled with medication lists and uni work cuz im locked in too deep KASHDKASJD XD#if not uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh feel free to send me another ask#i hope maybe someone else can benefit from this too???? idk my advises are literally “just do it bro” which is very bad sounding#aksjdhkasd that's how I roll unfortunately#ask response#tips#gomz unsolicited advices
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it was once observed by a dear friend that the hours in which i am most alert are like 7pm to 2am which probably explains a lot about how my posts get worse throughout the evening. but also sometimes i look at today where i was just sort of gnawing the couch all day until about 5pm when i wrote an entire fic in two hours and then another entire post about kaapo which to be clear took another two hours bc i had to chase links and explain my passions in a kind way and this was in addition to a church meeting. i would excel as the person who lights and then extinguishes lamps in the night
#this morning my therapist was like your eyes are red what's going on#and i said bro i am not on drugs. it is cold and dry in my apartment and i was standing in front of a sad lamp#and they said ah. a sun lamp. i see#YES. BC I AM NOT A MORNING PERSON AND I AM BEING PUNISHED BY CAPITALISM TO GO TO THERAPY AT 10 IN THE MORNING#INSTEAD OF 6PM WHEN I WOULD BE ABLE TO HOLD A CONVERSATION BETTER#i think they think i am abusing substances. human the reason i am the way i am bc i am not abusing substances#i am rawdogging reality in almost every way and i HATE it. i am experiencing a full of range of emotions in real life!!#one good thing about today i must say. i looked in the mirror and went oh wow my california hair stylist did a good job!#my california hair stylist was good at cutting my hair in that she was filipina and understood how to cut filipino hair#she was not good at cutting my hair in that she would get too deep in explaining warriors drama and get distracted while cutting my hair#and up doing something absolutely wacko that made me look like a pepe frog guy bc she was too amped up about klay and steph#and then i'd be stuck with fucking alt right hair for a good three weeks and my only saving grace is how i look ambiguously ethnic#BUT when i saw her last i was like i need you to give me a haircut where if i can't get my hair cut for four months i don't#look stupid as hell. and she said oh yeah i can do that. and gave me a blow by blow of klay and steph's divorce while cutting my hair#and i was fearing for my life. but now that it has grown out pretty significantly i will say she did a very good job of cutting it#unlike every other time i grew out my hair in a big way and it looked incredibly stupid for several months until it evened out#but she cut it so it looks like my hair is on purpose. which i appreciate!#now i have more time to decide if i want to avenge bo bichette and grow out my hair again#without feeling stressed about looking incredible stupid and unkempt#thank you nicole...a true ally...i will never forget how much you hate kevin durant even though you stressed me out so bad...#and you may be wondering why if she gave me that many bad hair cuts why i'd keep going to her#and the answer is: bc i only want my warriors and 49ers news to be reported by an energetic filipina lesbian holding razor on my neck#and unfortunately the local newspaper beats just can't replicate that experience#fresno oilers.txt
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Young Rook Mercar watching her father’s troops in Ventus
#have to explore styles ? how can I make it dragon age#I’m never doing this style again tho because that hair shading FUCKED my hand#can’t believe mercars dad is randomly just a commander of ventus troops#well adopted dad#I like to think he says rook was “born in a battlefield’’ cause that’s where he found her#I suppose he would call her by her real name#Vivienne Mercar#I can’t decide if he should still be alive during veilguard#maybe just retired in ventus#married some low ranking noble lady or smth#I do enjoy the idea of lucanis going through mental torture that he has to ask for rooks hand in marriage from her father#meanwhile she’s like I killed a god Idgaf what my pops says about who I’m marrying#but lucanis is polite hmmmmm#bro I be rambling in these tags idgaf
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i know there’s a case to be made for daring suffering some character flanderization in his later appearances, but i like to think the break up with lizzie was just THAT bad.
#bro really did fumble#getting caught cheating with duchess is insane#of all the times to gaf about duchess too#like never once did he care about her existence before#daring man come on you had it in the bag#i’d like to believe there’s an explanation hidden somewhere#that deep under all the hurt caused there was a misunderstanding that got lost in the height of things#but just imagine her dumping him leaves him so broken that he just decides if he’s gonna give his heart to anyone#then it’s gotta be himself right#because he can’t break his own heart like that#plus he’s gotta act like hot shit right#or else someone might realize the great daring charming had his heart broken as a result of his own foolish actions#and that’s the last thing he’d want#and then you know the story#it all comes crashing down in dragon games#and he has to reconsider his own position in life in epic winter#but after everything#i think that maybe someday#hopefully#he and lizzie can reconcile#and friendship can be possible#but until then she’ll always be the one that got away for him#or the one he let go#yeah now that i think about it cerise is the one that got away#and lizzie is the one he should have never let go of#rosabella you have your work cut out for you#eah#ever after high#daring charming#lizzie hearts
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Solve It Squad is such a wild take on the trope of a "found family." Like, the Squad found/chose each other as kids, when most of them pretty different people, and now that they are adults it's highly unlikely that any of them but Keith would make the same choice. But thanks to this extensive, unique shared history and trauma they're now just as stuck in their "chosen" (or more like "unchosen") family as they are in their "real" ones. Even more stuck, really, since they seem to actively need each other now that "life sucks on their own."
Like, "uptight and straight-laced" Scrags is now canonically covering up the fact that not one, but two of the Squad have murdered people. And he doesn't even like Keith all that much. The hold they have on each other is really just that damn strong, whether they want it to be or not.
#i mean he didn't do anything to actively cover up the crimes#but he found out after the fact and decided to do nothing about it and never mention it ever again#solve it squad#the solve it squad back in biz#benjamin scrags scragtowski#gwen barrywood#Keith Swanson#esther backpackblueglasses#rewatchers2000#tin can bros
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To me personally malistaire is the funniest and most pathetic villain wizard101 has ever had AND I MEAN THAT SINCERELY!!! Between doomed children who have been manipulated, groomed, and isolated into becoming products of their environments, someone scorned who has been punished unfairly by having your biological heart torn out your chest and turning your children and all of reality against you to satiate their own ego, a nonhuman entity so powerful and so clueless they unintentionally threaten the lives of everyone around them, Malistaire FELL DOWN BRO. Like yeah you're bitchless now. You and me both. Get in line. Everyone in this room is bitchless. We are ALL living that ✨💅🏾💃🕺 Single Life™. You are a middle-aged man. Cope
#this post is lighthearted btw JELAJWODJTU i aint actually mad#but like...... malistaire as a villain is kinda mid though im sorry. IM SORRY ill take the L opinion if i have to#its one thing if he lost his wife to unfair systematic negligence or thru someone else's doings or smth but. no she just got sick bro 😐#HWMSNFLEKSDIDOA EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE I WILL GIVW A BAD OPINION AND THIS IS ONE OF THEM. i cant be right ALL the time /j#like if i dont focus on malistaire's motives and just his ACTIONS he seems super metal#but then he does ALLLLL of that heinous shit because his wife died. like thats absolutely very sad but damn get a grip#(fandom starts breaking in my windows and drags me out into the street) IM SORRY IM SORRY LOOK ITS JUST NOT MY CUP OF TEA#ive never been invested in those Mr. Freeze types of villains where a person they love dies due to normal circumstances-#and they go fucking BERSERK. they LOSE IT. they go like “well okay fuck the entire world i guess nothing matters” and then kill people#LIKE IF IT'S DONE IN A CERTAIN WAY I CAN BE INVESTED but more often than not to me? its just kind of funny#like “okay damn there was only ONE person keeping you from being a national criminal? okay”#and you know what? thats a mood actually. thats a mood#without my cat i probanly would have become the president by now#for some reason its a little diff for me if its like a child you lost and idk why#like if malistaire lost a kid instead of his wife id probably be more inclined to feel bad and thats terribly fucked up JSLSJSJSJ#you know what its also bias because in some shape or form i relate to all the other villains. morganthe and duncan especially#whereas in malitsaire's case i have never been married. which i mean doesnt stop me from tryna be more synpathetic i guess but im just not#ONCE AGAIN FEEL VERY BAD FOR HIM AND SULVIA. like losing someone to sickness or any reason really is a serious thing#but in terms of a fictional setting with fictional characters where one of them decides to commit genocide over it? 🧍 like okay boo u do u#i will gladly give up my mantle for the “most reasonable opinions” guy in the fandom foe this one. i deserve it#wizard101#w101#wiz101#text posts#malistaire drake
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r u never gonna update haikyuu dear future husband cause it’s literally been 4 months 💀
no actually it’s never being updated. infact i am deleting dfh in .2 seconds as we speak .
#joking#on a more serious note can yall srsly stop asking me for updates#the series masterlist LITERALLY SAYS ‘updates irregularly’#like i warned yall abt it#also whenever i do feel like writing for dfh i get anons like this ^^^ who don’t even want to be a little bit nicer#like asking abt the state of the series is fine#i welcome any questions abt dfh if u want more dfh content while waiting for the main series updates!!#but i continuously get anons who are pushy abt updates for a series i put a lot of effort into so it takes much longer to update#i would hate to put out anything that i don’t think is good#and cuz i love dfh i refuse to write smth half assed just to please people.#its my series and i get to decide when it updates.#in conclusion if yall dont stop asking i will literally just never update. like let me live bro#the attitude towards writers on this site is appalling for content we lovingly make for free for yall . . .
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Honestly, knowing people who have substance addictions and comparing that to my relationship with self harm is predictable but unsettling
#Ive known its an addiction for years but like it really just is huh. This is just an addiction that I fell into#Tw sh#Tw self harm#I dont really know where im going with this but I fucking hope I get sepsis and die#I hate how much of a burden I am on other people lately especially my closest friends#But I know that if they left id die anyways#I hate that ive made them make this decision qnd I hate that theyve decided to stay#Ive been trying to slowly drive away some of my closer friends at least to a point where they wont notice/care if I die#I dont want to make it to sixteen#I know it was like this last time bht fuck I dont want to keep being alive I want this to be my last year#Ive done enough#tw sui ideation#I will never be able to safely function on my own without ending uo seriously hurting or killing myself#And I will never be able to rely on people without hating myself to the point of suicidality#Maybe if I thought they did it out of love rather than obligation it would be different but theyve made it clear enough#Im just a chore for them to deal with and set aside until I can actually take care of myself#Rationally I know im wrong I know im cared for but fuck. They sure dont like letting me see it#You can say you care for me thousands of times and its not gonna be worth shit when im in the ground#vent blog#vent post#shblur#tw self h4rm#self h@rm#Bro idk the shblr tags help
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